Thursday, December 9, 2010

Eating Healthier And Finding God

Been thinking of health and God today..seeking truths. I would say about health, that eating healthier is primarily one of the most basic steps that can be taken to insure better health. Eating more nutritious can be accomplished by taking in more raw vegetables, fruits and taking vitamins. Vitamin C in high doses is very good for the body.

Now earlier I started re-reading Neil Donald Walshe..the first of the trilogy "Conversations With God" I'm not going to expound on it right now other than to say you will find much truth in many forms in his writings.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Manifesting Desired Results Through Strength Of Purpose

I'm typing this from my iPhone.
For 9 years I worked for a man who was quadriplegic. I worked 3 overnights a week with him. Anyway Oct 14 about 330pm he shot himself in the heart and died. Earlier in the year my main job of which I was working 62 hrs a week cut all employees hours to 40 hours a week. That was effectively a 2 week pay check gone. Combined this with Toms death and my income plummeted.

Which brings me to this post. The first income hit I basically absorbed it as overnights is what I needed and working for Tom half the week left few options. Anyway when Tom died it opened the door to new employment.

Typing w/ an iPhone leaves a lot to be desired. Anyway..I decided I would be positive minded that my income would increase and that I would find the perfect situation that would fit all the needs of my life.

One month later I am working 5 nights a week overnights in a home with people who have physical disabilities.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Rising Above Earthly Issues

So I have been thinking about you God. I have been reading that website on near death experiences and it has opened a lot of awareness and reaffirmation for me. Things that are going on right now are typical of life. It is my desire to rise above the turmoil and keep the higher values in mind. All the stuff that is going on right now is just typical life. How I react to them is what ny choice s are.
 
When people are negative to us and get mad at us and want to punish us in their own ways..it is tempting to respond in kind. Sometimes the best thing we can do is stay away from having contact with them.
 
Sometimes people you think care show you they don't in some ways.. Well maybe on some levels they do but I would say those are levels that are not shown very much.
To be continued.

All We Can Do At This Point

All we can do at this point is understand what is going on the possible reasons. We are at a point that we can't change. Or can we in time? I think not. One should look else where to plan for the future. 

One should plan on what to do when this situation changes. Will mother nature step in and clean up our mess? I think so. For a long time we have been warned about what we need to do to reduce the possibility. Oh what our children are going to have to inherit from our generations and our forefathers generations actions.

We are a slave to our industrialized food production system. We are a slave to industrialized dependence on energy produced by oil. We kill for oil and call it the war on terror. 

Do you know that Henry Ford originally envisioned the automotive industry to run on corn oil, or biofuels as it is called today. However shortly there after it is speculated big oil interest had the controversial prohibition enacted that made it illegal to process corn, including the process that would have allowed to make biofuels. Hence the automtive and oil industries were marked in some would say an un-holy union.

That is just an aside to the idea, no the reality that big business is firmly in control of our energy situation. It is the same with food, many many cases of small farmers being forced into slavery of big business. 

This article is not about proving this statements. That is beyond the scope of a single article. No this article is about taking a look at the future and noting what you see. What do you see? Project outwards into time our present behaviors as human beings and what do you see as a race, as a species, what is our just rewards?

Friday, September 3, 2010

Friday The 3rd Of September 2010

I love my grand children. I have found in watching my grand daughters and older grand boy, that when say they get into an argument that I often escalate it by .. well escalating it. Like last night, AB and H were playing with their friends E and B .. (abbreviation) every thing was fine until H tried to take over the CD player that AB and E was playing with.

So I naturally get involved as they were getting physical .. and to me .. I made it worse .. do I blame myself .. not totally .. nor them .. we are all just human .. they are limited by their young ages .. 5 and 8 , and I am limited by my .. level of ability as well. Lets face it .. we are not born problem solvers of young children. We would like nothing more than them to behave lovingly towards each other .. but a lass .. sighh

Anyhow .. I have went down this train of thought before on how to handle it .. because often it is not their behavior that bothers me .. it is how I react to them and behave in a manner that to me is negative .. human .. but negative ..

You see, I do not want to get upset at them .. and when I do... I do not feel it is a particularly effective approach to solving the problems at hand.

I was thinking today when AB and I were at the mall .. well the situation is not important or my point here.. she started mis-behaving when we were entering the parking lot .. pulling my hand instead of just walking peacefully as she has been trained to in parking lots .. so I get some what frustrated and mad and keep walking .. as she pulls . .embarrassing to a degree do to a couple of helpful motorists that stopped so we could pass.. god .. always when you do not want an audience ..

.... anyway my point when everything was said and done ..is I chose to get upset .. it is a choice I did not have to make .. SHE IS 5 .. she is going to mis behave ..  the one thing I can truly choose in this is my own behavior .. i can always choose my behavior that I am comfortable with ...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

How Do You Want To Be? Is It Different Than How You Are?

We are not always as we would think we should be. I was about to say .. like to be, but when I think of how I am at times towards others .. and how I don't seem to care at the time.. then I guess I am being at the time how I want to be.

Later like now .. when i review my actions .. i think .. ok.. do something like this .. define how you want to behave .. I think I have done that before .. but ultimately .. every circumstance is different .. and the behavior that I am trying to curtail .. comes out.

I feel a sadness sometimes.. anyway .. getting back .. I know there is certain situations that bring out the worst in me .. that I let bring out the worst in me .. because it is a choice ...life is always about choices.. sad .. sad about a lot of stuff ... sad that I can not stop the pain in the world ..and sad at the pain I have caused.

Now if anyone actually ever reads this blog .. no I am not talking anything crazy .. i am talking about everyday relationships with the people we love .. and care for .. and how we do not always act in the most caring way. I am also talking about people we work with ..I know there are a lot dicks in the world .. sometimes I am a dick.

You probably are too. Aren't you...? We all are ... at times... self centered .. all concerned and involved in our selves.. You know this life is just temporary .. why we are here .. I do not really know .. I mean there are theories that make sense .. but I really do not know the reasoning .. I will say .. life in this realm is .. because it is worth living ..

I know from an intellectual point of view that being nicer to someone .. is good .. now I know that some circumstances do not warrant niceness .. I would just say .. that keeping hate out of my heart .. trying to make other peoples lives better .. more happy .. like giving a treat to someone who can't get one for themselves..

Friday, August 20, 2010

Update to life 2 days before birthday 54

I think that life entails more than just living it. It entails thinking about what we have done, what we do in the process. We make a lot of decisions day to day .. decisions that effect other people. I think in reflecting on how we are .. we think about these things we have decided to do and whether it was a good thing or not.

For one thing, most things we do at the time seem to be a valid action that was decided upon at the time. Well not always.. obviously things decided upon under great duress or under extreme emotions .. well we know almost from the get go that they were not right.

Sometimes we decide upon reflection of our behavior to change. It is my belief that God does not judge either way .. we judge our selves. God does not inspire guilt .. our own conscious does..

I feel sad at times over the conditions that exist and the outcomes of my behavior towards them. Feeling sad and bad is a great motivator to change. I read once that the two great motivators in how we behave is pain and pleasure and that we will do more to avoid pain than to gain pleasure.

Probably true... anyway .. I am tired now .. if you read this .. it is vague on purpose .. one has to be careful online about what one reveals about ones personal life .. don;t you think?

Sunday, August 8, 2010

At Work By Myself Again

Well here I am at work, on Sunday by myself ..again. I am suppose to have a partner in crime here, but more often than not anymore she doesn't come into work for this reason or that reason. I am just suppose to be happy about it. Anyway I'm writing this post in some what of and attempt to vent out negativity. You see I knew she was not coming in yesterday, she informed me of that decision days ago, however.. Oh I just received a text..she fell a sleep, worked her other job last night. . And is on her way. Understandable, anyway se la vie

Friday, June 18, 2010

Life is about choices and decisions

Life truly all about the choices we make. I read once that the definition of the word decision, was basically, you make a choice and then you cut off all other paths or possible out comes. Well we know that is not entirely true. But I have read that is why some people succeed and others don't, one person continually changes their mind, and another person makes a decision and sticks with it.

I read once where Jesus said,, or maybe it wasn't Jesus, that the road to salvation is not a straight line. We zig and zag down this path or that path, erroneous as those paths might be, and on our quest we gain knowledge.

Well I do know that when we do that zigging and zagging down those path, yes we do learn .. and we also might learn to consider life from a different perspective, and learn to view other peoples view points in a different manner. Meaning .. maybe we learn to look at the world as other people look at the world ... gaining empathy so to speak.

Well I might pursue this later.. but for right now .. I have to get ready and go to work.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

My Life Installment One

I was born in Utah, the middle section, steeped in the church, slow brewed to a crackly crunch.


Oh yes, this was the mid 50's. My Mom and Dad were alcoholics, though when I came to be aware of them in my life, that was a historical thing with them.

My Mom lost her Mother at age 16. Her Father Lynn, very nice, drank a lot.. or to degree, I do not know.. but I do know she became a drinker at a young age.

My Dad, raised in the tradition of Mormonism was a regular attendee. His parents, were devout, good people, though my recolections of my grampa Thomas were that he was old and white haired.. he died when I was probably 8 or so at age 83.. the same age my own Dad passed years later.

So long story short.. my Dad in early adulthood as I heard, married, divorced and turned to drink.. My Mother also had a first marriage,, so my Parents hooked up .. oh.. around 1950.. set about to having myself and 3 siblings.. I was the youngest ..

At age 1 1/2 I was placed in a foster home as were my two sisters and older brother .. different homes .. My parents went over a cliff in a car .. or at least my Mom did .. but I think they both did.. and promptly had their kids taken from them .. the crash was due to alcohol.

Ok.. flash forward.. they got us back .. I was 4 ..My Mom (foster) told me I had to go a way .. to strangers .. hmmm I remember crying .. she was my Mom.. the only one I knew .. dont remember her now .. but I remember this memory.

So my new folks, and new family, moved around Utah county...renters .. they lit down in Lehi for a spell.. and I met some good childhood friends .. some were Mormon.. some not.. the ones that were not .. well we had a club .. called the Sneak club.. we slept out at night .. then hooked up and proweled the streets of Lehi.. in search of adventure.. like climbing to the top of Lehis old Jr High school in the middle of the night.. later my brother broke his ankle .. jumping from the roof to a lower section ..

Ok.. what can I say about my childhood.. well given I was exposed to 2nd hand smoke a lot .. i was sickly .. skinny as they come .. and my parents being on the old side.. Dad was 44 and Mom 34 when I was born.. they dressed me funny .. litterally clown like at times.. so anyway .. I received my share of childhood taunts and teasing .. but I also dished it back .. a few of my bloodied classmates in highschool can attest to that .. but the point being here .. is it was childhood .. and I loved it .. and I love the people who I went to school with .. and I see some of them on facebook .. and we do not know each other to well.. but i think they are great and wish them the best.

Ok.. a nutshell as this is boring .. I spent 5 years in the Navy .. I worked at the Utah State Training School after 4 years.. I married a girl there who though great friends we were .. turned out to be bi .. and I think after our relationship ended .. she went strictly south .. dont think she has been with a man since.

Spent 11 years in Vegas working the county jail in Corrections .. hooked up with the a girl who I helped raise .. who I believe to be my spiritual daughters ... I now have numerous grand kids.. 3 of which I have been in their lives since each of their births .. Our lives now are intertwined in an almost daily dance of I am going to try to make sure they are safe, fed and happy, and they are going to see if they can drive me crazy in the process.. Their parents who are divorced but on reasonably friendly terms ..I am being somewhat generous there .. take over in the evenings and the week ends...

to that end I work somewhat evenings and weekends .. two jobs.. both fairly long term .. I also draw retirement .. from Vegas .. ok ..job 1 .. i help over see in their homes.. three men who have varing degrees of developmental and physical disabilities... for a corporation..job 2 ... a private situation .. a man who is quadreplegic .. married .. well off pretty much .. I help him in the overnights a few nights a week ..

.. I am realitively comfortable financially .. as I keep my expenses low .. otherwise it would be tight.. I could earn a lot more money if I utilized my commercial drivers license .. which is a A .. with numerous endorsments .. haz mat .. tankers .. doubles, tripples..passengers . . but it would take me far from home .. and change the lives of those I care for .. so I dont.

.. on some of my subsequent future installments .. I will start to explore some of my beliefs .. which to most of my friends .. is kind of out there .. well ok.. crazy .. but if I get that far .. and you read it .. know that I am not trying to convince you .. and I will explore some of the varrious things that has encapsolated my lifes ambitionn.. like trying to get rich ..unsuccessfully at this point .. right now I am in a hiatus on that quest .. pondering life and whats going on with this planet .. and what is coming to this planet has my mind occuppied..


pardon the spelling ..

to all my friends who read this .. I have love and care in my heart for you ..



Kay Thomas Brown - June 16 2010

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

June 2 2010

 Getting hot here in OK .. thought today how we at times during the day .. or week or month .. act a lot less of what our highest spiritual values are .. then when the day is done and we have time to reflect .. we realise that and think about it ..usually it is something that motivatess us to behave in a less than stellar .. but human manner .. like when this guy comes flying out of a side drive into the residential road I was driving down today .. with my grand daughter  Annabelle who is 5 .. and I am cussing .. and so is she .. repeating me some what .. I did hear "ass hole" come out of her mouth a couple of times ... dont we set such lovely examples at times .. ......... Well anyway .. the thought came to me .. that we treat each other like crap at times... us human beings ... and basically .. because we all act like that .. is why ths world is in the state it is in .. and then the thought .. simple really if we all cared for each other .. i mean seriously cared for every other persons well fare ... well starvation would not exist .. homelessness would not exist .. crime . wouldnt exist .. no need for locks on our doors anymore.. no need for military .. war planes .. war ships .. etc...  .... as far as planets go though .. we are a pretty imature race of humans ..we will grow and mature .. I am sure. .. well as much as this is entertaining me .. it is after 1 in the morning..so I am going to hit it ...

Friday, May 21, 2010

We had some major thunderstorms the other day

Oh I guess it was 2 days ago. Major supercells rolled through . I rode out the worst of it in my neigbors storm shelter .. all cement .. under the ground with a locked steel door on top.. that made me feel much safer.

Anyway .. I am probably going to do some more blogs on some of the subjects that interest me .. like what is going on with the planet .. I introduced that subject on my first post .. and there are other subjects I am interested in .. but I do not want to tie up my personal blog totally on those subject.

The reason being .. they will be a work in progress .. and also what ever I do write .. i want it all together .. plus I would like to expound on the subject thorougly .. and offer reasons and such to anyone who wishes to explore or argue the subject..

What are some of these subjects that interest me?

Oh lets see .. pretty new age stuff.. reincarnation .. agent prophecy ..earth changes .. life on other planets .. UFOs .. the nature of time .. ya know ..just your average stuff that every one thinks about ..

Ok.. thats it for this post ..
take care

Kay Thomas Brown ... .. 151 am ..

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Do you have any idea what is going on with the earth these days?

Pole Shift.. say that word and most people do not have a clue as to what you said or what it means. But I guarantee you , more people know what it means than would have several years ago.

Right now I am pretty tired. It just past midnight and I just felt like doing a little writing. The keyword little .. so I will not go into great detail on this post, however I will go into quite a bit more detail in future posts.

You see .. I am some what of an expert on the subject of Pole Shifts. . ok .. for those of you who are wondering, a Pole Shift could be considered a flipping of the earth on its axix.. like in flipping upside down. When that happens .. Where the north was north it is now south .. and visa versa.

Why I am writing about this topic? Because I believe we are as a race of people on this planet we call Earth in store for a Pole Shift in our not to distant future.. meaning probably in the next few years.. but honestly .. it may be more.. a lot more.. but if I had to bet .. I would say .. in less than 20 .. and I really felt lucky.. maybe less than 5 years.

I know there are many people who believe the same thing, however I do not know them personally. Most of the people I know, believe life is just going to keep on going like it has been going.

Anyway I am writing this for the people who want to know more. I will add more content to this subject on this blog, resources etc .. where an interested person can learn more.

Alright ..like i said .. I am tired.. so Good Night .. be safe.
Kay Brown - May 19th 2010 - 12:14am